HOLIDAYSSSSS

Oh my goodness!
I am FINALLY on holidays! I haven't had holidays since last December and it was becoming really hard to get through the last few weeks of work because I was just in so much need of a break.

So time for an update.

FRIDAY
Friday I went to work and did my usual 9 hour day, it was a nice day. Lou brought in cupcakes and sweets for us, we were also given smiggle Christmas gifts earlier in the week. Frenchie put on Pizzas for lunch and our bosses gave us christmas gift vouchers so it was a day full of perks. Friday Night I went out with TB and his friend to the local pub and ran into old friends, drank too much and had a good night.

SATURDAY

Saturday was Christmas Eve, I spent majority of the day feeling sorry for myself and nursing a hangover, then TB and his friend made me go with them to get food before picking up my car. So of course Davis' car battery had to die, we were stuck in the car for about an hour. It was pretty terrible, such a hot day with a hang over. I was grateful to get home. Saturday night I went to Harry Potters house for Christmas Eve dinner. I had wonderful food and a good time with Harry, she let me meet her new puppy and the feast had a mac and cheese pasta bake. It was delish. 

SUNDAY

Sunday was Christmas Day, I got spoilt by TB and his parents. We went to his Grandads house for breakfast and then we went to his other side of the family for Lunch. It was a nice day. I generally don't enjoy christmas and family gatherings and prefer to stick to direct family events but everyone had a good time. I'll be seeing my Dad and Brother in January so that will be really good. 

MONDAY

Today being boxing days everyone stupidly goes to the sales, I did this (dragging Harry Potter along), and I won't be doing it again. Madness. I had to go and get an outfit because TB and I have our Engagement Shoot on Wednesday Evening so I had to find something to wear, I opted for a pleated sheer maxi shirt that I'll team up with a simple singlet and accessories. Then I came home and did some house work (SO boring) and now I feel like being antisocial until TB is home then I might make him go out somewhere with me or watch a movie with me. 

So, yes so far that has been my holidays. I don't have to go back to work until next Tuesday but my week is already full on, tomorrow I have a spray tan and make up trial for the wedding, Wednesday I'm looking into Wedding Invitations and doing our engagment shoot, Thursday I'm going to Morley with Kelly, Friday I'm finally seeing Partner (!) and Saturday is New Years Eve! Sunday I'll be hungover and Monday I'll be dreading the holidays being over so quickly. FAR OUT!

Ruining my life

Two things are ruining my life today:
1) this ipad2
I am not a tech nerd and I dont like gadgets. Yep, not an iPad fan.
2) wedding invitations. I should have been much more prepared!
They need ages to get made and I didn't factor that in as i was just happy to procrastinate.
First world problems are ruining my life.

Reminder

I have been terrible with my time keeping lately and I haven't seen quite a few important people in my life.
I need to catch up with the following people sometime soon, and I will ensure to make sometime for this.
- P (Partner in Crime)
- Twinner
- Harry Potter
- Pa
& he ain't heavy, he's my brother.
So hopefully with 11 full days off, I can do that.
I know I'll be seeing Pa and He-ain't-heavy in Jan. I'm seeing Harry Potter next saturday night and I am definitely seeing Twinner and P as soon as we are all free. Shits gonna get hectic.

LOVE EVERYTHING

I love everything about this music clip. EVERYTHING. The filmography, the location, the bands style, the fashion, the props and of course the song.
LOVE it!

Invitations

I'm trying to draw up draft invitations. It's not work.
*facepalm*

Mix it up.

This is just going to be a random entry full of mixed blah.

First - I MUST do wedding stuff. I need to at least create the invites!!

Next Topic, I read in a magazine yesterday that 80% of people lie in their facebook status' to make their lives seem more interesting… So I decided to go through my status' to see if I fall into that 80%.

.

These are my last few status'

- Booo, I just want to blog and the home Internet won't work. Blah.

True.

I was at home, had some things I wanted to blog about and our home internet is always bipolar.

- Foods!!!

True.

I was out to breakfast with haveachat and was really excited about getting my breakfast foods!

- Everything is annoying me today, helllooooo grinchface!

Half True.

Maybe not everything was annoying me but someone had really irritated me. 

- Wineee! Nom nom nom.

- Other peoples kebabs smell so good right now

True.

Caught the train home with only 3o seconds to spare and someone had an Ispa kebab and it smelt amazing!

- Way too addicted to Teen Mom

TRUE!

Ugh I love that show, although it occasionally makes me want to cry. I can't believe I didn't know Farrah's ex boyfriend had died in a car crash, no wonder she was so mean to her mum and wanted to go out all the time she was probably traumatised & Amber, oh goddddd HOW THE EFF did she get THAT thin?????? Yup addicted and hanging for more. 

I used to be thin… I used to be. Gah would LOVE to be this size again… just with a tan and my extensions and fashion sense. 

Ok other topics. Friday night I just chilled out at home, Tallboy had a bromance date with his brother and I just wanted to relax. Had a shockingly disgusting meal that i'd pre-frozen and watched bad tv. My kind of Friday night (except if you're going out at the Kite, I miss going there. I'm thinking of trying to start going there a lot more in the coming few months.)

Saturday morning haveachat and I went shopping, I got contact lenses and she did some last minute christmas shopping. Then we went to a delicious breakfast. Saturday afternoon, Tallboy, Lovechild, her brother and I went up to the city and out for her brothers girlfriends birthday. It was a really fun night. We went out for dinner at a burger bar, drank delicious wine, re-visited my shocking dance moves from single life and then Tallboy and I walked the streets until we managed to find a taxi to get us to the train station. 

Today I haven't done much, I did some food shopping, watched teen mom and made pizzas for dinner. I did also put an offer on for a house! The cutesy homely one I love. Just hoping the owner will come down to our budget. Fingers crossed!! 

 Last week I also became too addicted to Coke, no, not the crackwhore kind, the sugary liquid gold kind. I had it three times for breakfast last week, it made me so happy that i'd even go into work and just talk to Memma about it, I'd just happily throw it into any sentence 'I'm happy since I had my breakfast coke this morning.' 'Don't worry, I had breakfast coke at 7am this morning.' 'oh I didn't get a breakfast coke today :(' you know the usual addicted kind of banter one gets when they can't get enough of breakfast coke.

So yeah that's my random boring update for now. 

Not much wedding stuff yet again. I seriously am freaking out about all the stuff I haven't arranged yet. And the Money oh god, someone win me some money. 

Whale Day

I'm feeling enormous today. It sucks. I have to go out tonight and I definitely don't feel up for it.
Everything I have to wear is terribly tight and I was thinking of wearing tights and long time but I think i'll just look frumpy still.
I think I'll need to be severely smashed before I go out tonight just to deal with my self esteem today. Bring on the wine. :(

Happy, happy Pandaaaaa

Ok so I haven't talked about what makes me a happy panda in a while so I thought it would be nice to do a post :)

First off that photo, ha, how could it not just brighten your day immediately? Lovely!

Since I've been house shopping I am just so excited to get my ideas into the house and make it as homely as ever. I can't wait to find a home and make it mine. I especially can't wait to have a garden. I want the front yard full of Lithianthus flowers and pink roses maybe even some lavendar. I want a little herb garden and hanging pots. I want to have fresh flowers that I throw effortlessly into glass jars instead of vases, I want rustic cutesy accessories. I am SO excited!

Scrubs and Harry Potter, won't get over it. Just love it. 

Emma Stone 

She's so pretty and funny, I think she's officially become my number one girl crush, sorry Zooey but you had your chance. Ow, why I no have bug eyes :( stupid almond eyes. 

My Gianttttttttt

I don't think I can express how much I love this boy. He just makes everything feel right. 

Such a good giant. 

Also something that makes me irrationally happy is cherries and grapes! Green, seedless grapes. They are so delicious.

Anyway it's 8.24pm and I'm a tired nana. I want to upload more photos but i've been so bad with instagram since changing iphones.

Will do an update about the wedding soon.

Updates to come-
Invites
wedding make up idea
tribute
tailored suit
wedding band

Lumos! Accio Firebolt! Wingardium LeviOooSa!

So I spent quite a lot of my weekend being a nerd and I LOVED it! What an amazing way to unwind and feel happy being cheap and staying. I spent a fair bit of time watching Harry Potter again, it just makes me happy. It really does. I think aside from Scrubs, Harry Potter really is something I can watch over and over and still love, although I am missing Year 1, 5 and Year 7 part two on DVD but i'll buy those later and will start it all again. :)

Yayyyyy Ron and Hermione

Anyway so Saturday went to the shops with Haveachat and we had lunch it was awesome to catch up, I got over shopping very quickly, sif have massive crowds, sif! Then I came home and before I knew it Memma came and picked me up to go and look at the house. I really like the house, I am arranging to go through it again, it's really cute, homely, neat and I really feel that I could make it something special. So hopefully TB likes it. Then Memma and I were going to go the the casino but our plans fell through so we had a movie night and hung out.

Today I came home and did some boring house stuff then Lovechild came over, we looked at another house and then went to a delicious lunch. Came home and watched some Harry Potter and just caught up on things, it was a great sunday. Then TB came home from a bucks weekend and now we're going to hang out and watch a DVD… and by DVD I mean Harry Potter :D I'm so happy.

Cheers to the freakin weekend.

Finally Friday night! So happy.

It's been a very hectic week at work doing P.A / H.R work - mainly learning bits and pieces of H.R it's been hectic but sooo good. I am loving it, whilst frying my wee little brain. I am now utterly exhausted.

So last night I started my weekend early and had a Harry Potter marathon after work (only watched two dvds) then I emailed a few make up artists in regards to the wedding. I found one travelling this way but things aren't going too smoothly so I'm trying to rebook. I am just leaving wedding stuff for a few more days now.

Tonight I went with Tallboy to his cousins birthday, it was really nice to see everyone even though I got attacked by a million mozzies :(. Then we went and got ice cream, it was really nice to do something so simple.

I came home and did my fake tan, replied to some more emails but now i'm just watching another Harry Potter DVD. :)

Tomorrow I am doing some last minute shopping and then…. I'm looking at a house! Yayyyyyyyy I have high hopes for this one, fingers crossed we can knock the price down a bit. Then tomorrow night Memma and I are going to the Casino with a work friend, it's going to be messy.

Anyway, this was a boring entry. I'm going to tan some more and then sleep. Yay sleepppp!!!! :)

Bed time! Yay

wedding update

Things I still need to do for the wedding -
Finalise Hens / bucks night.
Meet with florist (new one)
get all the guys suits
find a make up artist
get a make up trial
get all the bridesmaids shoes
get the wedding list finalised
start paying things off
book engagement shoot
get invites made and sent out
get venue payment sorted
get decorations sorted
try and learn how to make a wedding cake.

I'm seriously too disorganised for all of this.

Moving right along

So aside from that ridic little emotional bleeding heart entry, let's move right along to the other amazing shit overtaking my life right now.

Thursday night I went out for dinner noms with the work girls to say goodbye to Stacey who is knocked up, ready to pop and resigned. So we went to dinner and had a lovely time. I now like another wine, yay for me! We all ate way too much delicious curry and left feeling very full. Then Memma and I went to buy a few things, then Lou lost her keys but we eventually found them. Then I went home and snoozed for 7 hours until work.

worked.

Friday night Tallboy and I went to the city for another work dinner with a different department from work, we finally got up there half an hour late and drank many delicious long island ice teas, then we turned into mexicans and continued our merry way out in Northbridge. Tallboy and I went home relatively early and then I fell over and cried.

Slept.

Saturday I went to lovechilds house and hung out with her for a bit, then went to the beach with Tallboy and our dogs. Then we just bummed around and got some movies and ate bad food (of course). I know it's totes loserish but seriously… New FAVE movie! Watch it!

Oh brown haired actor that I couldn't be bothered googling, you are beautiful and so pretty to look at but you will still never be Heath Ledger in 10 things I hate about you or Penn Badgely from John Tucker Must Die.

Slept.

This morning I went to breakfast with friends and then to Stacey's baby shower. It was a lovely day. I sucked at ALL of the baby shower games. Then Tallboy and I went and looked at houses, none of them were 'the one' :( so the search will continue until I find something that feels homely and suits my ideas. I came home for an hour or so then went out to dinner and more wine (!) with Memma! Was delicious.

Now I've just made a few lunches for work (doing protein this week - time to get thin again) and am just relaxing until I have to drag myself to work tomorrow. :(

not myself

I'm not myself today.
Perhaps underlying stresses are getting to me, or maybe I do need that damned holiday.
I was finally feeling like I was finding my feet and my voice and getting to where I wanted to be. I wasn't bullshitting people and I wasn't being a fence sitter, I was saying at as it is and I finally liked that about myself even if other people didn't.
I am really disappointed with a few aspects at the moment and I hate how I romance past memories.
I look at things and remember the better times and I remember them without adding in the bad memories. It's like I don't want to believe how some people have turned out.

 If we go down we go down we go down together, best friends means, best friends mean. 


My memories keep emotionally blackmailing my mind. It's kind of tiring really. I need to know that all things happen for a reason and some people really aren't there for you and some people do let you down, and there is no doubt that i've probably done the same to others but I never, ever really thought that one particular person would truly be out of my life and due to our life paths, I am positive that there will not be an adjoining road.

I swear you have no idea.

ugh

I am royally pissed off. Why am I so technically challenged!?! I'm so dumb! So, the last month or so (at least) I had set up for $300 a pay to go into another savings account with a different bank, but for some reason each time it's failed and I HAVEN'T NOTICED! So I've spent the money I thought I'd been saving! I'd been saving for when Tallboy and I get a house, I'd been saving for Christmas, Emergencies and for sometimes 'me' presents…. or at least I thought I'd been saving. What a douche'! :(
So pissed off, so I've been living pay cheque to pay cheque thinking it was worth the saving when really i've just dwindled it away on living expenses. FML.

WHAT A DOWNER!

In other news, I've been slack with blogging as you can tell. I will update with photos more often when I'm not so busy. My life is too hectic at the moment. Great and fabulous, but hectic, very hectic.

Quick update - Love life is great, Tallboy is great, my friendships are great and my work is getting SO much better as I'll be moving into H.R soon. Just need to get my body and work out regime back on track and my budget under control and I can happily continue to glide through it all.

So my plan is to get blogging properly again soon, I'm very time poor. I want more photos, more wedding updates (although majority of it is done), more adventures and stories of what's going on.

So far tonight was an amazing date night, Tallboy and I went out to dinner at an italian restaurant by the beach, we shared a pizza and pasta (carboverdose) then we went to the movies to watch 'The Inbetweeners' was extremely funny.

Tomorrow I was going to do some christmas shopping but just checked my account so can't anymore. Tomorrow night I am going out to Harry Potters house warming and then we are going clubbing, I can't wait to get dressed up and hang out with her (I have allowed myself half of what is left in my bank account for tomorrow night, fingers crossed I don't use it all).

Sunday I am going to just be homely and potter around hungover doing washing and then I'll probably end up recovering on the couch.

Then on Tuesday night, Harry, Memma, myself and my other best friend are going out to dinner in Fremantle.
On Thursday night, the HR and Billing team from work are going out to a work dinner to say goodbye to Mamma (our wonderful prego friend).
Then on Friday night Tallboy and I are going to Perth with some work friends for dinner and drinks.
Then on the Sunday I have Mamma's baby shower!
HECTIC.
SO Busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I will have to start taking lots more photos!

blog, blog, blog

Man, I am going to pass out. I'm such a nana, but that's ok because nana's like me are super cool.

I went on a last minute date again with my work-bestfriend Memma, went to the same old indian restaurant , ordered straight away and ate too much as usual. Today was a good day at work, we just talked about how we sort of new each other when we first started but were too scared to talk to each other for about two weeks - we're so cool like that.

I think I had a point to this blog entry but i've forgotten it, being a nana and all, it's also past 9.30pm (it's 9.32pm - hard coreeeeee) so that's my excuse.

I got paid today, loves it! I love pay day. I bought new extensions and a hooters shirt, my hens night theme is a hooter girls party where my friends can all dress up in the Hooter girls uniform. Anyone who doesnt want to get fully dressed up will be asked to either wear the tank top or i'll make a pile of Orange Sashes that say something like 'Hooter Girl's Hen's Party' or something. I think it'll be cute. I'm excited for it. Just need to see a dietician and exercise more and maybe I can look like one for the party….


yeahhhh keep dreaming.

Ok nightttttttt zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Exhaustion strikes again

I have no idea why I am so exhausted lately but earlier this week I made the decision that this weekend I was not going to be doing much. Since 3pm I have been home and I am having a fantastic time! I'm home alone, I've chilled out in bed messaging friends, i've washed blow dried and straightened my hair, put a face treatment on. I even put on fake eyelashes just because! Now I'm currently relaxing watching foxtel AND my housemate (TB's cousin) is bringing me pasta cup for dinner! Winning!

I do feel that I will be crashing fairly early, I am so tired. Today I went shopping with a friend, it was exhausting, I have now realised that I much prefer online shopping, it's cheaper, the deliver it to you and it's like coming home to presents that you've already paid for but forgot all about! I LOVE it.

Life lately has been SO good, I'm so happy in my relationship, i'm utterly head over heels for my blue eyed giant. Work is hopefully getting better and even if it doesn't i'll have 10 days off in December. Friendships are good, I'm finally not being phased as much as I used too and out of the 2.5 kg I gained I have lost about 700grams in the last week or so from being healthier and pushing myself harder at the gym.

Things are looking up :)

LOL

This made my night, it's from failbook.com.

Unnatural:
Gays.

Natural:
Walking on water.
Talking snakes.
Dead coming back to life.
Virgins giving birth.

Come at me Christians.

haha It just made me laugh. I don't know why I fight things so much sometimes. It makes you wonder though hey, why so many people think some things are so wrong but other things don't get questioned at all.

I don't know. It was just a funny thing to read. I don't really follow a religion. I'm roman catholic, TB is christian. I used to reject religion at school because I went to a catholic school and had to go to church and Religious Education. To me it was very uncool to be into Jesus.

I couldn't even begin to imagine what is out there, but I do believe in Heaven and God, purely because my mum has passed away and she was an amazing woman who died too young from something she had no idea of and couldn't control. For her I believe that she is still living on and still loving and being treated well. I have to believe that there is something better out there, I have to believe it for her, I have to believe it for me...or it would crush me.

All I want to do this weekend...

Is start re-reading Harry Potter.

and then maybe watch the movies too.

One of my fav scenes of Harry doing the Pincers of the dead spider teehee

This is me doing pincers when I was ready to go to a party last year. I love Hazza!

Time for an update.

I have been extremely slack with blogging lately I have been very busy. I can't even recall half of what i have been doing. 


So here I go:


Wedding Update - I am so excited to get married, TB and I have always had a great relationship, we are a good balance and I keep feeling that I am loving him more and more each week. It's just awesome to be this happy. I really don't know why, but in some ways I just didn't ever think that this would happen to me. I'm so glad that I am so happily in love and not just someone who has 'settled' Having someone you can laugh with is seriously some kind of magic. 


Our wedding is almost 6 months away. The wonder Mother In Law has arranged the hire of all of the big things and is looking into other minor things for me (cake / flowers etc) and it has made me so much more relaxed about the day. I'm not stressed anymore and I am getting more and more excited about the big day. 


Life Update - Friends and Drama, so there has been a bit of drama lately in my friendship circles. I can't even recall half of it. Basically I still get approached by certain people who still try to ruin my good times but they still haven't actually understood that I'm not having it anymore and I am done. It's actually funny all of them thinking that they're upsetting me, more than anything their actually teaching me how I choose to respond in certain situations. I'm really proud of who I am becoming. I am really happy. 


Work Update - Work has been very hard lately, emotionally. It's draining. I am on a completely different page to my boss and trying to talk to him is sometimes like talking to a wall. I had a meeting with him and after everything I said to him he said his part and it was eye opening to realise that yes, we are on two very different pages. I left that meeting feeling so low. It's been two weeks since then and i'm still trying but I'm still not getting anywhere. It's probably the only aspect of my life that I'm not very happy with at the moment. 


Goal Update - Last check I had lost 7kg, I don't feel much slimmer, i'm still not a dress size smaller. I have had two weeks of over indulgence and little exercise so I'm too scared to get back on the scales as I think i've gained so I'm being ignorant. Tomorrow i'm back on the healthy eating plan and exercise but not wanting to get up for work has also made me drag my feet and it's made me a bit lazy. 


November Update - I don't have free weekends in November. So busy. It's good but crazy. 


I can't remember the rest. 

9%

lets see how much blogging I can do with 9% battery left.

So I know I've not blogged for ages. I haven't had my laptop and i've been busy. I wanted to blog really badly last night but couldn't because the internet wouldn't work.

So bullet points of what I need to blog about will have to do until I get time.

Wedding Update - YAYYYYYYYYYYYY I am FINALLY legit excited and super dooper happy to be getting married because a lot of our wedding stuff is booked! No stress!!!
Life Update - Friends, Drama's etc.
Work Update - Still killing whales unfortunately
Goal Update - almost 7kg down but still not satisfied.
November - all booked up.
HoneyMoon - getting booked.

wow look at that I'm too tired to continue. Stay tuned

Tribute

Balloons
fishing lines
gladiator chairs
saying.

FACT!

I went out on an impromptu last minute dinner date with my coworker Memma, we ate way too much food but had a good catch up and she made me feel better about my dilemmas etc. Then I came home and washed my hair and now I can't be bothered drying or straightening it.

I also can't be bothered shredding my skin off of my bones to get my fake tan off to apply a fresh nice one and tonight my chipped polish is going to stay chipped polish (esp. as Harry Potter borrowed my quickdry prostitute red colour one) 

I have written a few times about how great extensions, tans and manicures are, I haven't mentioned one other thing… maintenance, maintaing that shit is annoying - FACT!

It takes time to make yourself look 'pulled' together and tonight I am not going to be bothered with this. 

My house is also a bomb site. Cleaning is not a priority in my life - FACT! However, having a messy house drives me insane - FACT! So, I think I might try to do a tidy… if I can be bothered…. in a minute…or 29million…….

I like to say FACT, - FACT!!!

I hate being a girl

Being a girl sucks. I feel like a whale right now. I've lost weight, my clothes are finally getting baggy and I feel absolutely disgusting right now :(

Girl Crush Alert

Ok So I occasionally get girl crushes I think all girls do. My fav girl crush has always been Zooey Deschanel, gosh I love her. I think I just love alternate, unique, quirky, odd ball girls with bug eyes that are actresses who make you feel so connected to them during movies. It's like Zooey in Yes Man, she's just that awesome girl that has the mystique and charm to her. It's like a girl you wish you could be. I couldn't be mysterious if I were wearing an eye patch and an invisibility cloak at the same time, i'd just be invisible and move stuff. Anyway that was random…

I still love Zooey, but I just can't get enough of Emma Stone. I luff her, L-U-F-F just luff her. She is fantastic. I've watched heaps of her movies and have watched youtube clips of her and she's just someone who seems so collected and genuine. Anyway I think it's stupid to say that sort of thing about a movie star, I think it sounds superficial to say they seem so down to earth as if I know her. So back to not being so deluded. Here are some pretty pictures of my girl crush, swooonn. Ohhh check out those bug eyes. I have stupid small almond eyes. BUT I am grateful for them and eyesight (even though my eyes are lame and don't even see good.)

Anyway I need to get back into the gym on Monday hardcore (didn't go once last week) and I need to start feeling better about myself especially coming into summer.

QUICK FIXES

My top tips for myself feeling better.
1. I will go back to the gym - Yes I hate the gym but I need to go and RPM is enjoyable for 14 minutes before the torture begins.
2. Buy some new clothes - I had a gift voucher so I bougth some cute shorts, and must have accessories - Iphone cover in an amazing turquoise bluey green, same with earrings (same colour) and another pair of coral coloured ones.
3. Getting my hair done - My friend is a hair dresser doing it on the cheap, so I'm getting my hair dyed, cut and the addition of extensions for length next week.
4. Faking it - Fake tans - I will still love them. I need to buy some spray on because going to my lady is adding up.
5. Faking it - PART TWO - Fake Lashes - I'm finally a real girl!!! I have mastered the art of putting on fake lashes.. (and by mastered I mean I've done it twice and it's worked!! YAYYYY I'm so Profesh (professional)
6. Music - Happy music. Love, Love, Love - by avalanche city. Somebody that I used to know - Gotye, Jessies Girl - Rick Springfield. anything that makes you want to sing, laugh or dance… or do impromptu duets with Harry Potter and then you have a winner (Gotye is def out song.)

sooooo

Sooo, I was meant to blog last night but our internet was down and I was so enthused to blog I had so much to write about and now of course my goldfish memory has kicked in and I have no idea about what I was going to blog.

TB and I have been working on our guest list for the wedding so that has been good, we have both come to conclusion that writing a guest list is actually pretty hard. We have great friends and it's quite hard to ensure that you remember everyone. So far going back over the guest list I've missed out one of TB's cousins, one of TB's closest friends, two of my cousins, two close friends and two aunties and uncles. So had to go back and recalculate all that, the list ended up being 150 people. So we are going to definitely do a cull, we're just going to have to be selfish. For me I tend to think too much and not want to hurt anyones feelings and then on the other hand I keep thinking if I wasn't invited to one of my cousins or aunty's or uncle's wedding would I care? and honestly, the answer is no. It's horrible but i'm at an age now where I love my extended family I do, but I don't see them, I'm at an age where I'm focusing on starting my life with my future husband and he and my immediate family matter most to me. So i'm sure whoever we don't invite wouldn't even care. I hope.

Then I did mock up guest seating with all of the initial 150 that is also quite hard. I'm sure it will get much easier as soon as we have RSVP's received and stuff like that.

I also really really need to get my butt moving with the wedding invites that I want made. On etsy.com (oh my god love that website) there is a chick who makes stamps from photos of you and your lover or stamps of whatever you want. So I need to pick some cute pics of TB and I to send off and get made and I need to take some money out of our wedding account to pay for them as they aren't cheap.

Thennnnn I also started making a music list for the playlist for the DJ. Tip for future brides if you love top 40 music or tracks they play in clubs. Use google all I did was go through google and type 'Australia top 40 hits 2011' then I also put in month and changed the year. I got 50 songs so far and half of them I had forgotten that I'd loved. So happy with that. I am so clever! *snaps for me*

Also at our venue we have room for 20 guests to stay so I put a room plan together for who can stay where and i'm pretty happy with that. I have done the best I could with it.

hrmm whatelse? I also met up with my Pa earlier in the week for some dinner and he's going to help me make really cute signs for the wedding venue to hammer into the grounds. I want one to say 'Our Adventure starts here' and then have one pointing to the bar saying 'Bar, get loose' or something cute. We'll also hire a marquee it'll be too hard to try and get everything set up without many helpers.

I still need to find a make up artist, figure out how or who can pick up my wedding flowers, get the guys suits, get the dolls shoes, get bar staff, get all the alcohol, get the favours, get the tables and chairs, get all of the centrepieces sorted, get the invites done and a million other little things but i'm feeling a lot better about things at the moment. I feel as though Twinners wedding being so perfect and relaxed and simply gorgeous really made me feel so blessed to have found TB and have him let me do what I think will make our day special. I'm starting to get excited and it's a nice feeling.

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In other news, my goldfish memory has struck again because I did have something else to go on about other than Emma Stone (Emma Stone post coming soon - god I love her she's such a vixen!)

Damn yeah it's gone I really can't remember...

SALJKFLKDJSAFLKJASLKFDJ

I can't wait to get married now!
EEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeEeEeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I still have so much to do, I wish I wouldn't procrastinate so much.
I'm so exhausted right now.
I haven't gone to the gym at all this week. I could not get out of bed yesterday morning and this morning i'd had a shocking sleep. i've been doing shakes pretty well but still eating one meal a day, yes this week I broke down a bit and binged on junk but it was due to being tired and doing the wrong thing to try and get sugar highs to keep me motivated.
Anyway I'm going to try and go tomorrow morning but this weather is shocking and I can feel myself perhaps being a little reluctant. I think that if I get the good sleep that I've been yearning for I should be ok. Some of my clothes have started to be a bit smaller and my legs aren't as disgusting as they've previously been, I could step into my wedding gown instead of having to have it put on over my head. So there are some good changes. I just need to get back on my motivation train.
toooottttt toootttttt (or whatever noise trains make etc)

Wedding Posttttttt

Yay finally a wedding post!!!

Twinner and Grae Grae got married on Saturday and it was the most perfect wedding ever! Oh my goodness, it has put so much in perspective for our big day and I am so pleased that two of my oldest friends allowed me to be a part of their life after me being absent in theres for a few too many years.

The day was absolutely perfect, I just can not use any other word for it. They had a ceremony in a beautiful park, the weather had been terrible all week but the sun came out especially for them on their day. The park was next to a beautiful lake with a picturesque fountain and a feature bridge. Twinner came over the bridge and stunned us all with her gorgeous glowing smile in a glorious dress that clung to her model frame perfectly. All of the boys were wearing kilts and everyone was just stunned to see the two of them together. Kylie and I got so emotional during the vows and everyone was moved. You could not ask for a more matched couple.

After the ceremony while Twinner and Grae Grae went for photos, some of the guests and I went to the local pub to have a few drinks and start to get merry. I had an absolute blast. I only knew a handful of the guests but they all welcomed me with open arms and made me so included what wonderful people. Then I drove a few of us to my house and TB took us to the reception.

The reception was perfect, everything was white with simple colours and feature centre pieces that had the right dash of colour.  I dubbed our table the rowdy table as we clearly had the best guests ever seated with us.

The food was awesome and champagne flowed. We had a potato and leek soup for starter it was amazing! (Sorry guys at my wedding, No Soup For You! - haha we can't afford starters.) Then the main was a buffet type selection and my god, It had the BEST ceasar salad of my life! It was sooooo good, so good in fact that when Matt had left his seat his boyfriend and I decided to steal his salad and eat it all to ourselves. It was delish! Then desert was some coffee cake or something was far too drunk at that stage to have any food ettiquite and Matt got payback and stole mine anyway.

During this time there were highlarious speeches and Grae Grae's mum sang a song that Grae had written for Twinner it was amazing!! It sounded soooo good and I wish I could have heard Grae's version.

After that all the dancing occured and we all let loose! It was the best time ever. Everyone had a great time there was no drama, just good times and excellent company.

It went sooo fast, it made me sad how fast it went. I had to leave earlier than I would have liked because otherwise I would have been stranded there but I just wish that it could happen all over again.

Congratulations Twinner and Grae, you both deserve all the happiness in the world but now that you're married I'm pretty sure you already have it.

Dying

I almost cried during RPM today, I was exhausted from work and had a headache but I still went. I couldn't push myself or focus, I hated every minute and now I think my headache is turning into a migraine but i've never had one before but I don't know. I just want to be sick. I'm going to shut down, turn lights and the laptop off and hope that i'm better tomorrow for the wedding of the year.

Positive Pat

Seeeee, I told you all to let me dwell and then I'd be ok, Didn't I?, Didnnn''tttttt Iiiii!?

Today was a GOOD day! I got up went to the gym and stuck to my routine, got to work had a shake. People told me that I looked nice today, which is always sweet. Then had a bit of work to do and actually kind of got a small victory from my boss finally signing off on a request - not training related - a software program that would make my life a lot easier and storage near my desk a lot neater, so I was happy about that, but then when I asked him if he thought I was highlarious (I'm seriously SO funny) he said that I was about 'as funny as cancer' um SIFFFFFFF. I told him off for saying that.

ANYWAY

I am not a debbie downer today but I'm still directionless and don't know what I want to do.


In other news -

I don't really have a wedding update, just that we've decided not to have the reception fall straight after the ceremony, TB's family can stay and drink and then our other guests can go off and do their own thing for a few hours and come back. Makes me feel a lot better as I didn't have any entertainment planned.

Apart from that I'm going to dinner with TB tonight and I am sooo excited to attack the salad bar, those mini dinner bread rolls are mine!

I'm going to an amazing wedding on Saturday, I am going to take a trillion photos and I've also decided that in general I need to start taking more photos, I can't wait to get an iPhone5 as I still have the 3 :(.

Yay for a happy day and it almost being the weekend.

Pity party for one please...

Warning: Content of this blog will be very negative, whiney and includes some course language. I need to vent. The party always has a pooper and the pooper is me! Also when I have a pity party, do NOT try and make me feel better, do not throw rainbows and puppies in my face because I will punch the said hypothetical puppies and rainbows. Just be a downer Debbie with me for a while and thennnn after a day or two you may be positive and comforting with me.

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I'm going to go and buy some cats and eat some food now.

The end of my Debbie Downer post, yayyyyyy for me. FML.

She's got you high and you don't even know yet.

Ohh my goodness. I'm picking up my wedding dress today, less than an hour. Why am I nervous? I shouldn't be nervous and i'm worried, What If I don't love it anymore? What if it doesn't fit? What if I get make up on it? What if Harry hates it?
EEEEEEEeeeeeepppppp i'm freaking out.
Let the fun begin.
EEeeeeEEeeEEeeEEEEeeeee

Unrelateddd

Oh god, how freaky.
I was looking at the Love love love song by Avalanche City, and then I went onto youtube for 'Somebody that I used to Know' By Gotye because I LOVE that song and needed to hear it, and also as I know Harry Potter and I will sing it on our roadtrip to get my wedding dress tomorrow (Harry sings Kimbra's lines) anywhooooo and this song DOES remind me of someone that I used to know and what's even freakier is that Goyte looks like the person the song reminds me of (just a friend, never a boyfriend or anything for those of you playing at home) but man sooo freakkyyyyy, so now I can't watch it because it scares me but dang, tomorrow in the car I'm sooo singing my parts amazing. Harry better get her singing voice on. Woo. I wish I could put a picture of Gotye and then a picture of the friend up here but that may be considered a little stalkerish. sooooo freaky.

Wedding Talk

TOP WEDDING RELATED STRESSES:
 It's the etiquette of family invites.

What if the combined family numbers are huge? And the couple getting marrieds bank account is not? Ugh dilemma's. My problem is, that I have a big family, most of who I never see, most of who I want to invite to be polite but realistically would not be upset in the slightest if they weren't able to come due to them having their own family life to attend to. Same with Tallboy, not so much the 'never' see's part, he see's them all extremely regularly it's just the numbers. Numbers are what makes it so expensive.

A lot of people I've spoken to have said that they only invited friends, family and aunts and uncles no cousins. To me it's weird to invite aunts and uncles without cousins. Problem with my family is that due to the age different I was always the left out cousin. I was like 7 or 8 when they were 13 up to 28ish. I was the annoying little cousin that got left out and due to that I'm not exactly close to a lot of them, also our family never did massive family gatherings when I was growing up, only for Christmas and Easter maybe. And not only do we have cousins, we have second cousins. We need to be brutal and draw the line somewhere. My friend at work told me that I'd have to be really selfish with the guest list but i'd feel sooo guilty.

 It makes etiquette and my stupid gut instinct to want to please everyone really hard. I feel horrible even writing this but I don't know what to do. I think we'll just invite everyone and then just see what happens. A lot of people will have other things on and then maybe we could invite more friends. How shit is that? I just wrote that because of our large family I've left off friends. Well it's true, I've left off people that I don't see all the time but I saw them more often than family and I always have the best time with them. I have so many wonderful work friends new and old, I'd love to invite the work girls, they'd be sooo much fun but I can't. I'd love to invite my old work friends but I can't. It's so messy and upsetting. I just want to please everyone. I don't want to hurt anyones feelings and I don't want to cause a family rift. Blaaaahhhhhh, maybe I'm over looking it. Maybe I'm not. What do you do?

Stupid large families! :( Stupid age difference! :( Stupid not being a millionaire! :( I am going to try and adapt a 'the more the merrier approach' Yep! Sorted. I am going to do that from now on. The more the merrier…. and they can all eat air because I won't be able to afford to feed them. Yayyyy forrr usssssss.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Ok in other news, less freak-out-ish; the engagement shoot (which I still haven't booked) I had some cute ideas, I got my amazing banner the other day which says love is sweet on it. I'm hoping to have TB and I hold and end each in tall grass at Caversham, I think it'd look so simple and cute. Then also have another one with it wrapped around us. Also I want helium balloons and just all sorts of cutesy stuff.

Yay for being cute!!!

Get your freakout on

Oh sheeeeeeettttt.
The wedding is roughly 7 months away.
Time to freak out.
No wedding bands.
No marquee.
No decorations.
No suits.
No cake.
No favours.
No invites.
No seating list.
hahaha and it goes on. I am freaking out. Oh dearrrrrr.
I just wish it were all done, my budget is through the roof and honestly it doesn't have the 'dream' wedding items on it, no luxurious silks or chandeliers for the marquee, no amazing garden chairs, no floral decorations (only bouquets), no excessive expensive champagnes and no live entertainment. How does it blow out soooooo much!?! I'm just hoping my equations are completely inaccurate… but I don't think they are.
Sighhhhhhh.
All I want at the moment is too book our engagement shoot, I want to get dolled up and scrub up Tallboy and go into caversham and have gorgeous photos taken in tall grass, BUTTTT I don't want to look back at photos of me as a fatty. I've only lost 3.3kg, It's taking forever and I've lost motivation. It's hard. I know whinge whinge whinge. My life is SO hard (I'm being sarcastic there) I just have some really cute ideas for the engagement shoot but I honestly don't want photos of me being this big. I also don't want engagement photos too close to the wedding. So I'm needing to book it in the next two months. Sheeessshhhhhh.
It's.all.too.hard.

Updattttteeeeee Dayyyyy

It's been a while since my last blog and again I forgot to read my last post to keep me updated on where i've been what i've been up to etc. Anyway hectic crazy few days lately.

Ok, So Thurs morning Tallboy left for Melbourne for the footy finals on a boys weekend only type thing (wasn't the happiest about it, earlier in the week, purely as I have wanted to go to Melb with him for months, anyway, he agreed to buy me a present or two so that sweetened the deal) so he left and I went to work. Friday night came home to a parcel at my door step. It was my wedding banners!!! They are beautiful, I adoreeeee them. Oh my goodness. They're just perfect 'country, rustic, romantic' just bliss, love love love them. So happy. Also chose the song I want to walk down the Aisle to, I just love it! See below - perfect and so me. 

Then I asked my friend to come round for some drinks and we caught up, little miss have a chat is what I will call her, she's a great girl. She stayed around til about 1am and then I had to pike because I had Twinners hen's night the next night. 

Saturday woke up and did some last minute things around the house, spent about an hour trying to find my knee high socks for my 1920's pin up costume for the hens party. Got to my Partner in crimes house and got ready. I met one of her good friends there Kylie. Kylie was lovely so friendly and sweet and we got on so well. It was set to be a wicked night. 

At the Hen's party everyone had made an amazing effort and dressed up, Twinner looked stunning and Partner in Crime pulled of the Sailor Girl Costume so well. We all drank a few cocktails and then had a burlesque dance lesson which was lots of fun, then we headed to Freo in a stretch limo and went to an amazing burlesque show. It was fantastic. The night ended rather early which was a bit of a shame as I was hoping to have a big one, but I ended up home safe and sound and that is always the best ending to a night.

Partner, Twinner and I 

Partner and Kylie

Partner and I 

In the morning as I didn't have Tallboy, I wasn't sure how i'd get my car. Luckily the gorgeous Harry Potter was able to take me to pick it up and we ended up having a fantastic breakfast. It was delicious and I made Harry a fan of Hollandaise sauce (best sauce ever!) Also my best friend from QLD called me and we had a quick catch up chat, it was awesome to talk to her after so long. 

Then after that I spent the rest of the day dying. It was a good weekend, took some really nice photos and had a good laugh. 

Quickie!

Just a quickie blog tonight because I'm tired and can't particularly see at the moment (woke up this morning with my eyes stuck together, had a shower and they were ok but my contact lenses wouldn't sit on cornea properly so had to wear glasses - better not be conjunctivitis) my eyes ended up ok for majority of the day, but then driving home from dinner and my left eye was drying out and became hard to see out of. It's ok at the moment now.

So I dropped off a costume for Twinners Hen's night on Saturday night to my partner in crime, then rushed to dinner with Harry Potter. I had a great time with Harry, she laughed at me while I ate myself silly with terrible dinner manners and I hopefully helped her de-stress about uni. I love my Harry Potter.

Anyway, enough about that. I haven't blogged properly about our wedding plans for ages…. and guess what?!?!
It's not going to start up again now. Lol. Sucks to be you if you wanted a decent update.

This is our update:
We might have found a DJ. MIL found one that sounds really amazing.. now that i'm writing this I think I may have already mentioned it… (Note to self, read previous entries before writing new blogs) Anyway he sounds good, his website looks really professional and he's affordable. I think we should get him. Will have to look at his website again when my eyes don't hurt so much. But if we have the DJ done, then all we have to do is get staff etc which MIL can do and then the set up and decorations and then I don't have to think about itttttttttttt.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

Ok, so it's updateeee dayyyy

What a crazy busy week at work last week. Whew, it was intense, great to be so busy but very, very fragmented and unorganised for someone who is a P.A, my bad.

So after my crazy busy week, Friday night I chilled out. 

I rushed to a 5.30pm RPM class and then rushed home to shower, then rushed to my spray tan appointment (My spray tan lady is obsessed with my butt, because it doesn't have that 'crease' type thing, at first I thought it was weird but now I have a new found appreciation for my derriere, so thanks Jo.), then I finally got home at 8 and then at 8.30pm by the time i'd made dinner I was able to sit down and relax. Was a longggg day. All I did after that was read a magazine and watched bad t.v.

Saturday I woke up early and did general annoying housey type things, washing, dishes etc. Then I headed to my date with my partner in crime, we ended up in the city a little later than usual but that was fine. I got two HOT dresses, one is just amazing. It's got a plunging neckline, (perfect for my fakies) and it's got cut out material at the back and it's draping at the front it's sooo good for an hour glass figure that I'm rocking at the moment. Then the other one is a Bardot bandage dress a beige/light pink colour with a black bow around the waist - it's my project dress, right now it does look O.K on but if I keep up with healthy eating and RPM I feel in another month it will look wonderful on. So I'm very happy with my purchases. 

Fav moment of the day was when I lost my Burberry sunglasses, I was walking out of Myer and I was looking in my bag for my sunglasses and I couldn't find them. I was like, 'Shit, Chloe i've lost my sunglasses' so Chloe was so good and patiently walked me back to a few destinations and we asked at a few counters and checked the change rooms and then Chloe said, 'Ok retrace your steps, where else could they be?' so I explained where they could have been and I said 'When I tried on that last dress I hung them half on this side of my bag like…….' and then as I said that and showed Chloe my bag there they were, ummm FAIL! ahaha I felt like an idiot. Such a douche bag.  After that we went to a pub for a meal then headed home. 

Then I had to get ready for the SBL (State basketball league) wind up for TB and his friends (TB used to play SBL for four years, he quit last year and started footy this year) so that was lots of fun, I honestly had such a big day that all I did want to do was sit in my fat pants and have an early night. Once we were at the stadium it was fine, we just drank and chatted with everyone there. We got home at about 1amish. 

Then today, Sunday I spent majority of the day dying (the usual for me after a night of drinking.) Went to see my dad for Fathers day, then went to TB's dad's for fathers day, we all went to a park with TB's family and took all of our rough collie dogs to play it was wicked weather. Then we had a picnic and ate delicious kiwi fruits and chocolate cake. Then headed home.

It's been a busy weekend. 

I have decided that I will not be going to the gym each morning anymore, I do just get too warn out, I am going to do the three RPM Classes this week and I will weigh myself, if there is no difference I will go back to the mornings and nights, but If I do manage to lose some weight I will just stick with 3 RPMS a week. 

September is already crazy busy for me, I am catching up with Harry Potter on Tuesday night, then this Saturday is Twinners Hen's Day and Night, Then Saturday the 17th is He's-not-heavy-he's-my-brother's engagement party and then the 24th (following saturday) is Twinners wedding!!! SOOO Busy.

Also today did talk to the MIL (Mother in law) more about the wedding which made me feel better, and this blog was supposed to be in regards to that talk, but I've already blogged too much and now you'll all be bored. 

I'm thirsty.

The end. 

I have to say...

I really am feeling a bit flat today.

In other news, I got my cute stripey straws from Etsy today i'm very happy with them, I need lots more though haha.

That's all for today, I know my blog has sucked lately but I'm just a bit down and sad blogs are boring blogs. I should feel much better tomorrow, I am going to Perth with my favourite partner in crime, Chloe. We've known each other through mutual friends for a while, but we are just so close. We have honestly only hung out a few times together but we have so much fun. So I am going to Perth with her and we are going to have some retail therapy (thank you $300 gift cards from He's-not-heavy-he's-my-brother, for my birthday) perrrfeccttt time to use them because i'm broke!

The boys started talking about going to Melbourne next week so I left the room, sif not invite me. Even though I will be maggot at the most gorgeous of all girls, Twinners, hens nights next week, it still hurts because i've wanted to go for about a year now. :( Yay for shopping my heartbreak away.